Where do you start when you can’t determine the beginning?
Well, whether it’s the beginning, middle or end, I am starting. I don’t have a
choice. The decision was made for me. Some would say it was written before I
took my first breath. Though that’s a tough pill for me to swallow. “Now faith
is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen” Hebrews
11:1 KJV
Being a very visual person, meaning I have to see it with my
eyes in order to put it in my head, this thing called faith has always been
extremely hard for me to grasp. You have to believe in what you cannot see,
hear, taste, feel….wow. That’s a lot to ask. Hope is different than faith,
right? Hope is wanting. Faith is believing. Well…here’s a verse that connects
faith to hope… “Therefore I say unto you, What things soever ye desire, when ye
pray, believe that ye receive them and ye shall have them.” Mark 11:24 KJV
So, faith is believing that what you hope for and then pray
for, you will receive. Ah, but wait, there’s a catch! A slippery slope to this
new revelation of information. IF IT’S HIS WILL. That’s right. He has to want
to give you your hopes. Doesn’t mean He will. May not be in His divine plan to
give you what you want. This is where I am. I wonder, is this the beginning?
Maybe. Could be the middle (if you go by my age), just another turn of the
wheel. But, what if it’s the end? Well, if it’s the end, does hope matter? The
end is over. Final. Completed. Finished. Not true. What I am learning, is that
faith means to be faithful in knowing that though you are bound within His
will, you have a lot of room and many directions in which to proceed, FORWARD,
always forward, into the next step. We have free will to choose the step we
want to take. You may be stepping away from others, but that happens. You may
be stepping away from a bad situation, make the next step better. You may step
right into a mess, but, you are promised to not walk alone. This is faith.
Taking the next step while not knowing where it will lead but taking it knowing
that you have a companion.
Not a companion you can see. But if you are quiet, still and
open, you can feel and hear your companion. You are not alone. This, this to me
is the faith I hope for and pray for and understand is in His will for me. The
faith to know that though I may be lonely in the human sense, I am never
spiritually alone, ever.
My rainbow in all of this? A sincere heart awakening to
faith.
All my love, Me
