"Worship ME only. Whatever occupies your mind the most becomes your god. Worries, if indulged, develop into idols. Anxiety gains a life of its own, parasitically infesting your mind. Break free from this bondage by affirming your trust in Me and refreshing yourself in My presence. What goes on in your mind is invisible, undetectable to other people. But I read your thoughts continually, searching for evidence of trust in Me. I rejoice when your mind turns toward Me. Guard your thoughts diligently; good thought-choices will keep you close to Me." From "Jesus Calling: Seeking Peace in His Presence" - a daily devotional.
So, I read this today and something immediately stands out to me, "Anxiety gains a life of its own, parasitically infesting your mind". Wow. That is very true. I know when I give in to my anxieties I can't seem to break out of them. One leads to another and to another, etc. Like a parasite in my mind. When this happens, I usually get trapped until the current situation changes and forces me to refocus my attention on the new thing. The next thing that stands out to me is "what goes on in your mind...searching for evidence of trust..." So, part of anxiety is saying to yourself 'I know they can see, tell, think...' and this statement makes it clear that 'they' have no idea what's really going on in my head. So I can be confident, assured, strong even bold because 'they' have no idea how weak and insecure I really am. But then, to know that when, in an anxiety blow-out I say 'please God, I need you' He is already there waiting for a glimpse of my trust in Him! That's why the help comes so quickly after that statement. He was already in my mind and was waiting to see just that little blip of faith. Today's rainbow comes in knowing if I focus on Him, my parasitic anxiety can be contained.
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