My Friend, Time

Time is a very curious thing. I had been hoping for time to find a new job as I saw my then current job diminishing. Nope, time had other plans. I lost the job first. Then I became quickly consumed with time running out before I could find another job. Time has now become an enemy.

Yet, in the middle of all of this, time has brought back to me a precious gift. A friend, from some time ago, that knew I would allow my mind to consume me and needed an escape. An escape into a situation where time was no longer in control. This worked. Time has given me enough space to get out of my head, relax, focus and prioritize so that as I venture back into facing time again, I can do so in a much more productive manner.

But, time, in all it's wisdom and history, has so many good and bad qualities that we have no choice but to take notice of time. I was sitting in my new found peace when I heard my daddy's song come on and I enjoyed it, for the first time since losing daddy, without tears. Time has allowed me to remember without pain. Time has become my friend. Though, through this current situation that I find myself in, I find that time has also become my enemy. After so many years invested in my job (12 1/2), I have, without initiation or provocation, heard from only 3 people from that job. I had so many people in my work life that said all manner of "you're my friend" statements to me, yet, now I am gone and those times, it seems, have been forgotten.

Time, depending upon our perspective, can be a wonderful giver or a torturous taker. I am, by mechanics, typically a negative first thinker. However, I have come to a new understanding of time that has, in this mess that is currently my life, become my rainbow. Time to remember without tears. Time to realize when to move on and forward. Time to reflect upon the people in my life and their role within it. Time to acknowledge my worth to myself when no one is listening or looking. Time to see the line of survival that has been in front of me for many years, even when I think I do not fit into this person's life. Time to notice what family and love means when it's presented without ribbons and pretty packaging. Anne, you have been my survival line and family with true, unbiased love for a very long TIME, thank you.

My rainbow, TIME, in all of it's many facets, colors, good and bad. Time has shown me those things which I could not see on my own.

All my love, Me