Become the Positive

There's so much negativity in my daily life and throughout my past. This negativity has become part of me, how I live and what I believe. I'm not worth much I believe. I'm not very smart. I'm too overweight. I'm very plain, maybe even ugly. I'm not funny. I'm too sensitive. Etc...and so it goes.

I want this to change. I want positive to become second nature in my daily living. I want to see myself the way someone sees me when they compliment my smile. I want to know that I'm as smart as someone tells me I am. I want to be...enough. But, I don't believe I deserve these things that I so desire.

I've lost someone whom I love so very dearly and always will. Yet, I often wonder, do they know how much they meant to me? Could it be possible that they loved me as much as I love them? I don't want this trend to continue. When someone passes, I want to KNOW that they truly believed the things about me that they said. That they knew how much I loved them. I want to KNOW how they felt about me without all of this doubt clouding all the positive emotions.

Finally, some reprieve in all of this daily negative. Someone cared enough to ask. Someone believed enough to prove. Someone saw something worth looking deeper. Someone thought I was....enough.

My rainbow today has been the focus that I have given to the recently given positive in so many ways, on so many levels by someone who is a positive influence.

Look for the positive. Believe the positive. Live the positive. Become the positive.

All My Love,  Me.