Internal Cleansing

So, I've been forced to do a lot of thinking lately, no choice. I, like most of us, have been bombarded lately with the newest and greatest fad in dieting, probiotics, cleansing, etc....and this has brought me here tonight. I have had several things said to me lately about how this can be freeing and that can be liberating. I have taken all of these things and internalized them, very deeply and sincerely.

Part of my conclusion, I posted to social media this morning: Will you be ready when you see the end approaching? Are you strong enough to endure the results of your actions?

So, we go and go and go in whatever direction we are following, however, each road comes to an end. You will then be faced with staying there, or turning before you reach the end. When you see the end approaching, you run out of time to turn. You must face what awaits you there. Choosing to continue to the end can have devastating consequences. Once the choice is made, you can not turn around. You have no choice but to see what the results of your actions/choices will be and what those consequences are. You will only have 2 choices when facing the consequences, you fail to survive or you find the strength to get through them to either learn and make better choices or, hopefully not, repeat those same choices.

Sometimes, the internal cleansing we need is deeper than any fad medication/food can reach. It's a heart, mind and soul cleansing that is needed. While in the middle of a situation, your logical self, even your good self, knows that the choices you are making are not the right ones and if others were to know of them, they would be hurt. Here's the problem with this cleansing, knowing in your mind someone might be hurt is so much different than experiencing their pain and disappointment. This is excruiating to endure. You cleanse yourself of your negative actions by bringing the information to the center stage, and the consequences is having to personally experience the imagined pain of others, people that you love and care about dearly. Their words, they hurt. Their tears, rip you up. But, the look of their pain that they wear on their faces, that's excruiating. This is where you need to find more strength than you have ever before experienced. Will you survive the pain? Will you repeat the choices that led you here or will you forever learn from them?

Internal cleansing can be good for the soul, be careful though, you will never be the same. My rainbow in this conclusion? If I survive, I will be stronger than I was yesterday. Strength is appealing. I want that, I need that, I will have that kind of strenth.

All my love, Me.