Big Desire, Bigger Blessings

Ever miss someone in your life so much that it hurts when you think about them? I'm sure you have, most of us have lost  someone dear to us through death. They will never pick up the phone again when you call. When you visit, they will not be sitting in "their spot" anymore. Your go to person has gone. Personally, I have wished for one more call, one more visit, just one more anything. Well, this can happen through a person no longer being a part of your life but not through death, just through circumstances of life.

This has happened alot to me in life.We moved enough in my childhood that I transferred schools several times. I left my home town and lived in another town without the means to get back "home" very often. Then, I left the state. Then, I left another state. Through all of this, people have come and gone through my life. Some, I have missed. Some, well, maybe not so much. Some, I have hoped and prayed had a better life. Then, there's the ones that I have missed so much it hurts. There are plenty of reasons for the missing and the pain. However, there are those that I have missed so much that I prayed for "just one more". Well, God recently granted one such request.

I made contact with someone that was once considered my sister. I never "really" lost contact, we are friends on facebook! But, we haven't seen each other in about 8 years (give or take) and hadn't spoken since then either. Only a random FB message here and there. But, oh so often in those years that were passing, I had wanted just one more call, one more visit, one more hug. So, one day, totally out of character for me, I reached out to her. We chatted. We texted. Then, we scheduled a visit, I was overwhelmed with anxiety and went by myself because I wasn't sure how it would go. It went pretty great. There have already been 3 more visits, 2 overnight stays and countless texts.

Here's the thing, I initiated this step with this person because they were going through a tough time and I wanted to be there and didn't want any regrets in the future of missed opportunities. But, what has transpired is not only an amazing rekindling of a friendship-sister relationship, but an awakening in me that I have, for a very long time, longed for greatly. I set out to be there for her and I was over whelmed with blessings for myself.

My lesson in this situation? Always do for others selflessly and you will be greatly blessed. My rainbow recently? Finding Me inside of Me that I thought was forever lost. I cannot wait for the next text, the next visit, the next GREAT thing!!

All my love, Me