Choose Your Focus

I have been in a state that should have my anxiety and depression at it's worse. It's bad, but it hasn't become devastating. I sit today and evaluate why that is so I can try to build on it for the future.

It's a mind set thing, ultimately, is the conclusion that I have come to today. I decided to focus my attention on this tiny little four legged creature that came into my life and simply needed. I chose to make her the priority of my days. She's thriving now and it's a beautiful thing to see.

During her growth into her independence, I decided to keep my focus positively focused. It has worked! I have managed to get my house in a great place. I have taken to Bible studies in a new and different way which has kept my interest. I have begun a new blog to get some deep troubling and consuming emotions out of my head. I have decided to reverse my view of those things in my head.

They are there. They will always be there. I can let them cause sadness and pain or I can allow myself to remember their happiness and love. I choose happiness and love. Each interaction that we have affects our lives not only at the time of the interaction but long afterwards. We can choose to focus on whatever negative may have come from these interactions or we can choose to remember and focus on the positive from them.

I have been lost due to having lost someone so very important in my life for quite awhile now. I was consumed by the loss and all that meant. I finally felt truly loved for who I am and despite my problems. I truly and deeply loved this person in return. However, I can no longer focus on what's missing. So, I choose to focus on the good that has come from this interaction and there's so much good!!

I have been lost due to having lost a 12 year job and all that went with that. It's been consuming in a very negative way. But, I learned a lot during my time there. I choose to focus on those things.

My rainbow during this...my right to choose how I see and focus on my interactions.

All my love, Me